Dear Fellow Traders,
This is Phelmar again and would like to grow a very tiny account to something big. I know the fact that Foreign Exchange Markets are very cruel and rigged to us retail traders and therefore it is really difficult to compound a small investment into big figures. Let me introduce myself again here. I was in MLM last 2009-2011 back in Philippines and I was not able to make money from all of those networking sites. I spent a lot of money while I was still in my country Philippines but I'm glad that I was able to recruit any people except myself have gave in into registration fees or membership fees but I was so disturbed the idea of recruiting others in order for you to make money. Then, I came here in Thailand with the purpose of being a missionary last April 12 2011 as it is related to my degree that I have completed back in the college, Philippines but the (TAM) Thailand Adventist Mission headquarter rejected me when I arrived in thiscountry Thailand but I have good communication with them when I was still in the Philippines, they even confirmed that I would immediately start working as missionary once I arrived. So, a Thai good pastor have told me to find a work as a teacher as I don't have any chance to be recognized by the officers of the church here. Then, it took me five months to look for a job as a teacher here in Thailand in two provinces namely Rayong and Chanthaburi with a two inches thick of resume that I have submitted and nobody responded my application as my degree is somewhat intriguing to them coz I am a Bachelor of Arts in Theologygraduate and this kind of degree is similar to their monkhood though their monks that some are selling pornos and other illegal activities didn't even have a high school diploma (Some Monks). But it is their country so we don't have a choice. I got a job after five months under agency and the way the agency treated me was not also good. So, I embark another province somewhere in South, Surathani from Chonburi and I worked like a month there in a primary school then and I got a call from the University to work as a lecturer back in Chanthaburi where I arrived first in Thailand from Philippines several months ago. I started working in the University by December 2011 and I ended my work there last December 2016 not in my will but I was kicked out from the work because I did a lot of absences due to my religious obligation as the president of (ATPACT) an Adventist teachers religious community group to help less fortunate high school students in the North of Thailand with their summer program/activities and I was not able to balance between my teaching classes and my time as a volunteer in the religious organization so the University has to find fault for me to be eradicated from being a worker there. That was devastating because prior to my unemployment, my wife and mother-in-law while driving going to the meeting with the officers and suddenly we were hit by a lorry truck at the traffic light and the car was almost totaled, good enough that we were still alive and the truck driver makes excuses that the break have some malfunction but I don't believe him as there is around 22,000 deaths caused by road accidents here in Thailand every single year, worse than the COVID-19 VIRUS. I applied in an another University and was promised that they are going to give me a one year contract and be able to work with them and later on I received a call from them that my application was declined, the same thing happened to another vocational college. I tried to apply in primary to secondary schools. Every time I submit my resume with my previous teaching experience in the University that is printed in my application, the HR of those schools I applied looked at me with a puzzled look as if I have done a crime in the University that I worked in the previous and it is a natural reaction to them as being a worker in the University here in Thailand is somewhat a stable job and therefore they are trying to question themselves why in the world this guy came to our school and apply as a teacher with small kids. This is very intimidating and disappointing on my side as all want is a chance to work again because I cannot be admitted in the University as they require masters degree for foreigners now unlike before back in 2011. Then, I have suffered depression since I lost my job last December 2016 and until now I am still at home struggling to this condition, doing all the house chores that I can as my wife is working in the University for quite sometimes now so I have to help the house. I tried to apply again this year and hola, I was accepted in a high school environment only to find out later that my NON-O VISA cannot be changed to NON-B Visa which is a working VISA inside the country. I must go out and get my NON-B VISA either in Malaysia, LAOS or my country Philippines and as all the borders are closed due to this Pandemic Crisis so it needs around $3,000 from our pocket for the expenses that I need in order for me to get a NON-B Visa outside the country and this stuff is beyond what my mama and my wife can afford. I don't even have a $10 in my pocket. I tried to do gardening now and was able to sell our bananas amounted to $20 and this will be my final investment and hopefully I can achieve my targets according to the compounding plan I have attached below in microsoft word file. Life is not easy folks, it so hard. I joined Forexfactory last November 2016 and I have already depression that time since I knew I had only one month left as a University lecturer and worker that time. Several times I wanted to commit suicide and you can see this video in this link, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_0VMBxtlIzs but our family dog is truly a human animal support to me, then my wife is really doing anything, hiding all the knives and sharp stuffs inside the house even belts because I already lost hope. My mother is also worried about me while working in a far away province in the capital of Thailand, Bangkok while us my wife and I are currently residing in Chanthaburi Eastern part of Thailand.
Now, Let's get back to where I was still working. In 2012 I was into Paid to CLICK SITES then affiliates, HYIP Programs, Revenue Sharing Programs and then by 2013 I started engaging with Binary Options that which is far more rigged than Forex Trading and all these shitty stuffs didn't work and its so frustrating. Then, April 2015 I started learning forex with XM as my first broker, I attended their seminars in Bangkok around 2016-2017 until they chance their schedule of seminars from SUNDAY to Saturday that which I cannot attend anymore as I have to go to the church on Saturday. While I was depressed coz I cannot find another job as a teacher, I tried to trade forex in small capitals of $20,$50,$100, and sometimes $500. Some of these monies are borrowed from someone else. I have been through struggles that it comes to the point that I DON'T KNOW myself anymore. You know what, I am a graduate in Bachelors of Arts major in THeology but I was angry to God and so upset why in 4 years and 5 months now that He was so silent in my prayers. I was even saying to myself, my wife and my mother and even my mother-in-law have assisted me in my responsibility as President of the ATPACT in a span of two years of time there, there was so much success for the programs and the outreach while the time that I met road accident, nobody comforted us and later on I was kicked out from the job and the rest of the involved individuals much more to those guys in TAM headquarters were not even asking us whether we are ok. Its a sad thing, really a sad thing. I have been here in Thailand for 10 years now and I wasn't even have the chance to fly back to my country in 10 consecutive years of being here and now I am below zero in anything, both financial and spiritual dimensions.
My word of advice to all of us here. Remember to save something for yourself and for your family while you are still in abundant years coz when famine strikes you dude, nobody will look back and see your situation whether you are ok or not except yourself and there the real struggle starts when things begin to sink in in your brain. Many times I attempted to hit another passing cars on the road and later on the car we have taken back by the company as we cannot afford to pay the bills as I don't have work anymore. The good thing is that we have a small motorbike that we used for everything right after I lose the job, even travelling to church for 60 miles, we drove our motorbike.
Its not easy when you are trying to heal yourself but you know you can't do it. Sometimes I wonder why life is so cruel to others while others are enjoying the privileges that somewhat they don't deserve. I have come up to this thought "That in the world you need to be the wolf and the sheep coz this world is only open for those who have closed fists than those who have open hands". There was a time that several people here at forexfactory were literally pinned me down with their discriminating words and I was like I thought its a place to know some friends its difficult when you are struggling emotionally while at the same time looking for opportunities anywhere just to help your family to make ends meet.
So, I tried to choose to live and try to enjoy myself while in the midst of this depression that as I look at things, I could see clearly that its a struggle at the moment. Selling Bananas to some friends and now I have $20 to invest again in forex and hopefully this time, I can make it to top in 3-5 years from now.
All of you are free to cast anything from your thoughts, whether it is a negative or positive criticisms I don't care as I have been into this condition for more than four years now.
I will attach my microsoft word file about my Three Year compounding plan with the initial of $20 and my trading platform is XM. This compounding plan suppose to start this July but I have decided that I will start it now.
And this is my youtube channel to which I will upload videos about my progress into this compounding stuff I have designed
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCP-VnY7NVaWSJSAhHaDHDRA
Hopefully, the real personal story of mine that I have shared in here can be something of motivation to those who are suffering in life as well. And for those who are in goods at the moment, I hope my story will be a lifelong lesson to all of you to help you avoid this kind of mishap in your life. The Bible said, be of service to others but now I see that only a few will look back and help you up when the time you stumbled and in worse scenario nobody comes to your aid when you need them. Secure first yourself and when you have more than enough then probably you can start sharing to those who deserve your kindness.
I am not sharing this story as seeking for symphathy from others but as life's lesson that others might be able to avoid mistakes that I have been through. It's up to you how you absorb and internalise my story here, all I want here is that, I just wanted to be myself and transparent how my life is actually moving at the moment. It's really difficult, its trying times in my family right now but as long as I will choose to live then I know I can reach the far end of this dark tunnel I'm into at the moment. I remember Peter Lynch have mentioned that word "Darkest before Dawn". There's always TOMORROW for all of us but it depends on how we perceive things today that will help us get through things during the night darken hours and experience the kind of unknown surprises when tomorrow comes. The Dawn speaks of NEW BEGINNING in life's lesson but in Forex Trading I would assume in my little knowledge that it can be a good opportunity to get in but make sure it is in your favor. So, I would end this long narrative as this can annoying to some who does not give f**k in their lives as we have different outlook and perception towards life. See you and I will try share my progress here and you can also see my public trading explorer if you want to. HaPPYPIPsDAY.
This is Phelmar again and would like to grow a very tiny account to something big. I know the fact that Foreign Exchange Markets are very cruel and rigged to us retail traders and therefore it is really difficult to compound a small investment into big figures. Let me introduce myself again here. I was in MLM last 2009-2011 back in Philippines and I was not able to make money from all of those networking sites. I spent a lot of money while I was still in my country Philippines but I'm glad that I was able to recruit any people except myself have gave in into registration fees or membership fees but I was so disturbed the idea of recruiting others in order for you to make money. Then, I came here in Thailand with the purpose of being a missionary last April 12 2011 as it is related to my degree that I have completed back in the college, Philippines but the (TAM) Thailand Adventist Mission headquarter rejected me when I arrived in thiscountry Thailand but I have good communication with them when I was still in the Philippines, they even confirmed that I would immediately start working as missionary once I arrived. So, a Thai good pastor have told me to find a work as a teacher as I don't have any chance to be recognized by the officers of the church here. Then, it took me five months to look for a job as a teacher here in Thailand in two provinces namely Rayong and Chanthaburi with a two inches thick of resume that I have submitted and nobody responded my application as my degree is somewhat intriguing to them coz I am a Bachelor of Arts in Theologygraduate and this kind of degree is similar to their monkhood though their monks that some are selling pornos and other illegal activities didn't even have a high school diploma (Some Monks). But it is their country so we don't have a choice. I got a job after five months under agency and the way the agency treated me was not also good. So, I embark another province somewhere in South, Surathani from Chonburi and I worked like a month there in a primary school then and I got a call from the University to work as a lecturer back in Chanthaburi where I arrived first in Thailand from Philippines several months ago. I started working in the University by December 2011 and I ended my work there last December 2016 not in my will but I was kicked out from the work because I did a lot of absences due to my religious obligation as the president of (ATPACT) an Adventist teachers religious community group to help less fortunate high school students in the North of Thailand with their summer program/activities and I was not able to balance between my teaching classes and my time as a volunteer in the religious organization so the University has to find fault for me to be eradicated from being a worker there. That was devastating because prior to my unemployment, my wife and mother-in-law while driving going to the meeting with the officers and suddenly we were hit by a lorry truck at the traffic light and the car was almost totaled, good enough that we were still alive and the truck driver makes excuses that the break have some malfunction but I don't believe him as there is around 22,000 deaths caused by road accidents here in Thailand every single year, worse than the COVID-19 VIRUS. I applied in an another University and was promised that they are going to give me a one year contract and be able to work with them and later on I received a call from them that my application was declined, the same thing happened to another vocational college. I tried to apply in primary to secondary schools. Every time I submit my resume with my previous teaching experience in the University that is printed in my application, the HR of those schools I applied looked at me with a puzzled look as if I have done a crime in the University that I worked in the previous and it is a natural reaction to them as being a worker in the University here in Thailand is somewhat a stable job and therefore they are trying to question themselves why in the world this guy came to our school and apply as a teacher with small kids. This is very intimidating and disappointing on my side as all want is a chance to work again because I cannot be admitted in the University as they require masters degree for foreigners now unlike before back in 2011. Then, I have suffered depression since I lost my job last December 2016 and until now I am still at home struggling to this condition, doing all the house chores that I can as my wife is working in the University for quite sometimes now so I have to help the house. I tried to apply again this year and hola, I was accepted in a high school environment only to find out later that my NON-O VISA cannot be changed to NON-B Visa which is a working VISA inside the country. I must go out and get my NON-B VISA either in Malaysia, LAOS or my country Philippines and as all the borders are closed due to this Pandemic Crisis so it needs around $3,000 from our pocket for the expenses that I need in order for me to get a NON-B Visa outside the country and this stuff is beyond what my mama and my wife can afford. I don't even have a $10 in my pocket. I tried to do gardening now and was able to sell our bananas amounted to $20 and this will be my final investment and hopefully I can achieve my targets according to the compounding plan I have attached below in microsoft word file. Life is not easy folks, it so hard. I joined Forexfactory last November 2016 and I have already depression that time since I knew I had only one month left as a University lecturer and worker that time. Several times I wanted to commit suicide and you can see this video in this link, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_0VMBxtlIzs but our family dog is truly a human animal support to me, then my wife is really doing anything, hiding all the knives and sharp stuffs inside the house even belts because I already lost hope. My mother is also worried about me while working in a far away province in the capital of Thailand, Bangkok while us my wife and I are currently residing in Chanthaburi Eastern part of Thailand.
Now, Let's get back to where I was still working. In 2012 I was into Paid to CLICK SITES then affiliates, HYIP Programs, Revenue Sharing Programs and then by 2013 I started engaging with Binary Options that which is far more rigged than Forex Trading and all these shitty stuffs didn't work and its so frustrating. Then, April 2015 I started learning forex with XM as my first broker, I attended their seminars in Bangkok around 2016-2017 until they chance their schedule of seminars from SUNDAY to Saturday that which I cannot attend anymore as I have to go to the church on Saturday. While I was depressed coz I cannot find another job as a teacher, I tried to trade forex in small capitals of $20,$50,$100, and sometimes $500. Some of these monies are borrowed from someone else. I have been through struggles that it comes to the point that I DON'T KNOW myself anymore. You know what, I am a graduate in Bachelors of Arts major in THeology but I was angry to God and so upset why in 4 years and 5 months now that He was so silent in my prayers. I was even saying to myself, my wife and my mother and even my mother-in-law have assisted me in my responsibility as President of the ATPACT in a span of two years of time there, there was so much success for the programs and the outreach while the time that I met road accident, nobody comforted us and later on I was kicked out from the job and the rest of the involved individuals much more to those guys in TAM headquarters were not even asking us whether we are ok. Its a sad thing, really a sad thing. I have been here in Thailand for 10 years now and I wasn't even have the chance to fly back to my country in 10 consecutive years of being here and now I am below zero in anything, both financial and spiritual dimensions.
My word of advice to all of us here. Remember to save something for yourself and for your family while you are still in abundant years coz when famine strikes you dude, nobody will look back and see your situation whether you are ok or not except yourself and there the real struggle starts when things begin to sink in in your brain. Many times I attempted to hit another passing cars on the road and later on the car we have taken back by the company as we cannot afford to pay the bills as I don't have work anymore. The good thing is that we have a small motorbike that we used for everything right after I lose the job, even travelling to church for 60 miles, we drove our motorbike.
Its not easy when you are trying to heal yourself but you know you can't do it. Sometimes I wonder why life is so cruel to others while others are enjoying the privileges that somewhat they don't deserve. I have come up to this thought "That in the world you need to be the wolf and the sheep coz this world is only open for those who have closed fists than those who have open hands". There was a time that several people here at forexfactory were literally pinned me down with their discriminating words and I was like I thought its a place to know some friends its difficult when you are struggling emotionally while at the same time looking for opportunities anywhere just to help your family to make ends meet.
So, I tried to choose to live and try to enjoy myself while in the midst of this depression that as I look at things, I could see clearly that its a struggle at the moment. Selling Bananas to some friends and now I have $20 to invest again in forex and hopefully this time, I can make it to top in 3-5 years from now.
All of you are free to cast anything from your thoughts, whether it is a negative or positive criticisms I don't care as I have been into this condition for more than four years now.
I will attach my microsoft word file about my Three Year compounding plan with the initial of $20 and my trading platform is XM. This compounding plan suppose to start this July but I have decided that I will start it now.
And this is my youtube channel to which I will upload videos about my progress into this compounding stuff I have designed
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCP-VnY7NVaWSJSAhHaDHDRA
Hopefully, the real personal story of mine that I have shared in here can be something of motivation to those who are suffering in life as well. And for those who are in goods at the moment, I hope my story will be a lifelong lesson to all of you to help you avoid this kind of mishap in your life. The Bible said, be of service to others but now I see that only a few will look back and help you up when the time you stumbled and in worse scenario nobody comes to your aid when you need them. Secure first yourself and when you have more than enough then probably you can start sharing to those who deserve your kindness.
I am not sharing this story as seeking for symphathy from others but as life's lesson that others might be able to avoid mistakes that I have been through. It's up to you how you absorb and internalise my story here, all I want here is that, I just wanted to be myself and transparent how my life is actually moving at the moment. It's really difficult, its trying times in my family right now but as long as I will choose to live then I know I can reach the far end of this dark tunnel I'm into at the moment. I remember Peter Lynch have mentioned that word "Darkest before Dawn". There's always TOMORROW for all of us but it depends on how we perceive things today that will help us get through things during the night darken hours and experience the kind of unknown surprises when tomorrow comes. The Dawn speaks of NEW BEGINNING in life's lesson but in Forex Trading I would assume in my little knowledge that it can be a good opportunity to get in but make sure it is in your favor. So, I would end this long narrative as this can annoying to some who does not give f**k in their lives as we have different outlook and perception towards life. See you and I will try share my progress here and you can also see my public trading explorer if you want to. HaPPYPIPsDAY.
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