Crypto Daytrading $10k Account

Wednesday actually ended up only -14$
Then Thursday was horrible -245
Friday -30$
And today -140$

Literally everything i do turns out wrong, lol.

Decided to take 24hours off because it's pretty obvious that i am not seeing things clearly.

Also coming back, i will scale down even more. Because right now i am just throwing good money after the bad.
Will risk only 30$ per trade, maximum 100$ loss per day and that is until i get a feel for the market again. I will be more selective with the trades, more limit orders, sniping entries, quickly in the money. Need to trade more in the direction of the momentum, because i am getting cut badly trying to get a limit entry counter-momentum and i get stopped into the bottom or top and then it reverses.

I've been journaling since almost forever but i rarely ever reviewed those journals. So now i will be spending much more time reviewing and reflecting on a daily basis.

Routine right now consists of:

1. meditation in the morning(10min)
2. trading throughout the day
3. reviewing the day in the evening(roughly 60mins) and reflecting(30mins)
4. Going through the market/charts prior to the daily close, and checking higher time frame closes(15-20minutes)

Right now i am focused on enforcing the routine and being consistent with it and all of this is ofc with the goal of improving the execution.

Bitcoin volatility beyond miserable right now. 100$ range the past 24 hours. There was a long setup yesterday, but i did not take... I just had fingers cut too many times so i did not want to play momentum... But i figure, when market is choppy like hell and when a higher timeframe setup finally appears, it's legit and the traders pile in and that makes it work.

No trades taken. The strategy for now is, that if Bitcoin volatility is low, i will be scanning the marketplace for top gainers/losers... I will chase the volatility and keep track of the coins with most juice and just play the setups there. Something is always moving and i need to take advantage of that.

Sunday, monday, tuesday... no trades taken. I actually set orders for a short when Kucoin hack happened, BUT i set the orders like 10$ above market price and it just straight dumped without me. I did not know about the hack, if i did i would've FOMOd in. And then yesterday in the evening i caught a very nice trade. Risked roughly 150$. More than i am supposed to but i really thought it was a good trade and i was happy to lose that money on the trade.

I started fantasizing how this trade would bring me $2500 overnight. I was aware of the wishful thoughts and i knew it was possible, but i also knew the trade was really good and i would have taken it again... However today i just started slacking, i stopped trading....and i wasn't even watching at the charts, i just thought i would come back to profits.

But the trade reversed on me... I got a counter-trade trade which was my exit rule, BUT I WASN'T watching... Thus i did not exit the trade... I was up 510$ where i should've exited... But then i ended up getting stopped out at -158$.

This was so stupid... I mean fuck. You can't let a 3R+ trade reverse on you and get stopped at a loss...
Got a mini nervous breakdown, i was really fucking pissed i mean fuck being up 500$+ on trades, but not watching it and just expecting that it will work out and expecting to come back to profits... Meanwhile if i just watched, i would've exited the trade and even reversed the position. This is beyond my rational comprehension... But i guess i get emotional or something and biased and don't want to be proven wrong and just don't check the charts.

I have screwed myself way too many times like this... But literally i can't take it anymore, it's so painful and i hate myself so much for doing such stupid shit i want to blow my brains out. I have to stop doing that or quit trading and for sure i am not quitting.
Went for a 2hr walk and calmed down and decided to take this a a learning experience and to not make this mistake again. I know it will be creeping upon me but i'll do my best to be aware of it and do what's right.